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Monday, December 22, 2008
-1:13 AM
2008 is almost over! besides christmas week, really looking forward to that. k if anyone reads this, just to let you know, its a brief review of the last year and a forecast for the next.
2008.
Accomplishments:
once again i slacked through and did ok for exams. HOORAY!!!
I GOT NATIONAL 10TH IN THE NATIONAL INTER SCHOOL SHOOTING CHAMPIONSHIPS
i got to know 202 a lot better :D gosh im gonna miss most of them :(
i went to sentosa with friends FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER
i think i made a lot of people happy... or at least talking to them made me happy...
i survived being on the commitee of 2 camps!
and other stuff i do not remember...
I DECIDED NOT TO INCLUDE THE NOT SO NICE PARTS
targets for 2009:
start studying!
be a friend for whoever needs one.
listen to mum more :/
do devotion everyday
shoot better
act responsibly in any leadership roles given
ok thats all. short post. bye!
Friday, November 21, 2008
-12:03 PM
i've seen it coming for years, dreamt about it. but nothing really prepares you. sure, it was expected... but still a little shocking and sudden. that is, death.
at least he didnt suffer, or at least i never heard about it. those huge, sparkly (dare i say), eyes closing for the last time. like how the curtains close on the longest running musicals. i'll miss him loads, the first but probably not the last. the memories shall remain.
goodbye my dear companion.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
-1:36 AM
hey just an update here.... to attempt to keep the blog alive.
life has been... lively? what can i say... 2 camps to plan. both looking quite messed up. but heck thats the challenge of it all aint it? friendships seem fine, relationships are confusing.
people just dont understand what a limit is do they... that really sucks for me. just gotta live with it. i hope all you friends out there are fine. enjoy your holidays pple!
lots of pple talking to me about how bored they are, dont see how talking to me will help, but i try to keep everyone entertained as far as possible. i miss the times with my class already the craziness of it all. bla.
pink sheep rule the world
Thursday, October 23, 2008
-7:28 PM
WHOOO 100th post :D i miss my class, 02 of 2007 2008. i hope to stay in touch with every single one of you for as long as possible. ok... maybe not EVERYone. haha you get what i mean. ok ending the post here. bye
Friday, October 17, 2008
-6:59 PM
if im sorry, i'll say it. if i say it, i mean it. if i angered you, too bad. if i hurt you, too bad.
i dont see the point in saying what i do not mean. i dont see the point in not saying what i think.
if i say i love you, believe it. if i dont, do not assume.
-12:57 PM
the struggle of life. survival of the fittest. but what use is being the fittest if one is not liked.
failure comes and success does too. you just gotta know to look beyond the failure. there may not always be a bright side to something, so you gotta make your own. why stand in the shadows of history when you can do otherwise. the battle is not lost until you have surrendered. and the battle cannot be won if you do not fight.
love can move the mountains. love may feel great, but beware of the harm it can bring. for hurt cannot be felt unless love is present. love occurs everywhere and knows no boundaries. obsession and love are not the same.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
-8:23 PM
that sense of neglect
stronger than that of regret.
the feel of being dumb
as ever so numb
the lack of love
the lack of joy
the lack of laughter
the lack of fun
the lack of a friend
the lack of another
the need for emotion
the need for a smile
the need for a voice
the need for craziness
the need for companionship
dull thuds echo
the music fades
all has dissapeared
forever.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
-7:11 PM
bus. route. mall. park. me. walking. belief. possibility. perfectionism. never. love. trust. life. meaning. her. future.
darn im random....
Thursday, September 25, 2008
-6:26 PM
ok ok i lied :/ i blog before studying math and while im still sick :/
EVIL VANISA!!!!
alrighty now another random post
might and fame, cash and power. whats the meaning of it all if you lose your soul. if you lose THE essence of life. life itself.
cash may get you much at the moment. but if economies were to tumble, it would simply be paper and plastic, of no value whatsoever.
fame. would the world remember that guy on TV if they suddenly had nothing to eat? would they be thinking bout how good he looked on that show, or rather about how to find food? sure it feels good, sure its a little nice having everyone know your name, but the crowd is fickle and you would soon be forgotten.
the powers of this world are only temporary. not at all stable. tides change in an instant, the same as money. so invest yourself in what lasts forever, your soul. the world is worth nothing to a man without heart, a corpse may own the world but it is of no use to him. therefore my friends, spend your time with those that matter for that is what counts.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
-11:25 PM
tomorrow i shall not think about how perfect life can be, but look at how great it already is
tomorrow i shall not get angry with people for getting angry with me
tomorrow i shall not be an idiot to people i think are idiots
tomorrow i shall thank God for all he's done for me
tomorrow i shall try as hard as i may to put a smile on as many faces as i see
tomorrow i shall not regret the decisions i made today.
knowing my purpose in life is all i need to live. its not food, air and water alone which keeps us alive. its our will, its us, its everyone around.
Friday, September 12, 2008
-10:18 PM
suppose. suppose i missed all of you that much. suppose i love her. suppose the world is perfect, its all you want it to be.
we'd been together for that many years. the anger, the hatred, the bunch. we're the best. thats what we were. nothing less than top class. all ours. every tear, all that sweat; to build that bond that never broke. over time it was forgotten but yet it remains. that number in the phonebook never touched until the day all else leaves you. lucky we were there at that time. lucky we shared a dream. lucky we felt the same. lucky we were thrown in 3-10 '03
Sunday, September 07, 2008
-12:12 AM
the difference between being you and being me. its in the way you think. everything is in the way you think. how you live, how you will eventually die, everything.
when you feel your life is a mess and you're plagued with troubles, why not look at it this way... you just got a new set of fun challenges to solve. haha yes i guess that would be weird. but wouldnt being able to see troubles as challenges be a lot better?
does one gain experience through learning or learn through gaining experience? neither i would suppose. thinking is putting knowledge and experience together into a situation. but even with infinite knowledge and generations of experience, what use is it without wisdom. wisdom is what enables us to make that final choice, that final decision, and make it right too.
our time on earth aint about worrying for the next day, its about planning for the future and living the present. sure unexpected things happen, but isnt that what makes it living? thats where versatility is important. the ability to adapt, to change for a situation, that ability, is what makes us humans different from animals, allows us to live under extreme conditions.
alright back to the point.... why is it some people can think clearly through their lives and why people spend half their time crying and worrying. you must know what you want in life, plan a path, yea why not, but be prepared to take an alternative. somewhere somehow there will always be a variable. importantly, do what you love and love what you do. if you dread everyday of your miserable life, you might as well be dead.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
-10:52 PM
random thoughts.... read if you want, if you dont get lost
life was not someone what someone wrote to be read and followed, its meant to be lived and fulfilled.
reality is not that thing which hits you like a train, its that bugger you find everyday.
if you can cry while you laugh, why cant i laugh while i cry?
rushing from a place to another and enjoying yourself is not called being busy, its called living.
if people notice the sadness so easily, why not celebrate the joy?
if all you want is joy, you'd be happy all the while.
ignorance does nothing, confrontation at least brings about closure.
since when was being different a bad thing? its just society.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
-8:07 PM
when i die. if i get a chance to look back at my life what will i see? what will catch my attention? the bad, or the good. will the good overpower the bad or the other way round. what will God see? will i dare see it all for myself? probably not.
no matter how hard i have tried i keep forgetting. live life for you dont get a second go on earth. with everything recorded in solid rock, correction tape wont help. make no mistake, it will be remembered.
-7:54 PM
time to update. actually, i dont have any inspiration for a post and im basically not too bothered to make a post . so ya this is the update haha
Sunday, August 03, 2008
-11:11 PM
life is meaningless without goal. it is not about getting here living and then dieing. its about what comes before and what comes after also. without a purpose humans are no better than animals, or maybe even worse than animals. as humans we are social. without interacting with others we are nothing. what is a life spent inventing the best in this world if no one is there for you to share with. without companions, there is no love, without love, there is nothing.
as i have explained before, evil is the absence of love. so if only evil exists, how can there be joy and life? for evil seeks to destroy these. if true love exists, nothing can beat its power.
we are not obliged to love and treasure those who treat us as friends, but we still do. this is as there is mutual love.
for lack of better crap this shall be posted.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
-7:52 PM
it is always there. brightens your day and gives you reason to see. brings about life and blocks out all darkness. its warmth embrace, its glorious glow. amazing power, lasting energy blazing upon our otherwise nonexistent life. priceless , irreplaceable, reliable. that is our sun.
scorching heat and blinding light. baking deserts and dry streams. uncomfortable stick brought on by the horrid ball of fire. invading every corner of free space leaving nothing behind. that too is our sun.
its about perspective.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
-8:15 PM
its not about the view its not about the situation. its about the perspective.
no matter what happens or how it may seem, someone else may see it in a different manner. no matter how obvious it seems to you, someone else may not see it. do not blame people for being unable to see the things you see because you too cannot always see things in the same way as them. there is not better or worse, as i said its a matter of your perspective.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
-8:57 PM
best friends are not the ones who go out with you. not the ones you laugh with everyday. neither are they the ones who run to you in times of trouble. not the ones you never qurrel with and seem to have everything in common with.
best friends are always there. you dont need to tell them how you feel, they know. they arent there for the feel good times, they're there for the long term. best friends stay up and dont sleep just to hear you cry and rant. they may not give the best advice but you know its genuine. best friends dont stick with you when you turn bad. they turn away and let you know you've gone the wrong way. even after you leave them for other friends, they'll be ready when you run back crying.
"friends dont play along when you've gone bad. they forcefully turn you around."
Thursday, July 10, 2008
-8:02 PM
the minutes seemed endless. sure, the clock ticked, but it didnt feel nearly as fast. the anxiety, the pressure it built up but didnt release. music, sure it helped, but time still seemed so slow.
9am. woah its the day of the comp, alright now just cool it and you'll be fine. sure man!
10am. just a walk in the park. no stress yeah? read, music, heck its fun to miss school.
11am. gosh 2 hour+ to comp??? WAAAAAAAAA
12pm. shit now im feeling so stressed ARGH!!! cool it, cool it..... alright breathe breathe. re read comp plan read all those little letters from everyone. the big day my finale right in front of me nothing complicated, but something feels wrong.
1 year. 1 full year for the sake of 1 hour and 55 mins. lets make it now count shall we? alright its gonna be fine! no worries. OH SHIT who am i kidding its my first comp! hope i dont screw up.
12.30pm. lets go in make sure the trigger passes.
12.40pm. alright gun safe.. dry firing wasnt that bad but not as good as normal... damn.
12.50pm. prep time. feels weird. just a normal monthly shoot like thing. no worries..........
1.10pm. DAMN whats wrong with my sighting!!!! damn damn im so dead.
1.30pm. not looking too good :/ but heck its too late to turn back now just keep going... no worries from now on. im perfectly fine.
1.45pm. whee im shooting so fast! hahah i think i should slow down. ok dry fire a bit more after those 8s. hahahs.
2.05
pm. haha last set. yeah man! go go go! can make this one above 90!
2.10pm. WHOO YEAH! 9 or 10 to make it 90 leave with a bang! ok raise gun, lower aim... aim... shit too much moving put it down! ok again raise, lower, almost there.... BANG damn.... swing. OH SHIT ITS A 10!!!!! AWWW YEAH! WOO HOOO 91!!!!!!
ITS OVER!!!! hahah Dex looks happy always a good sign! hahah i did it i did it im out! leave with a bang!
3.10pm. WHAT!?!!??!! 524!!!! Zong Jun! you see correctly not!!!! cant be la!!!! i shot ok. not that well.... oh heck, its for real YAY!!!!!! i think JJ is gonna owe me that dinner ;D hahahah.
my thoughts on that day itself :D
no matter the result, how long and tiresome the journey, friends will be there for you. - pete su.
